You know what I love most about blogging? It's like this built-in accountability group. :) I was really blessed yesterday by two friends saying they read my blog and it was an encouragement to them, good, that is my desire in my writings. Honesty in my own life that would hopefully encourage others in their walks. I also love the fact that another friend asked me how it was going. Thank you Courtney, so good to have someone ask.
I didn't reply on Friday. Instead I kind of groaned inwardly and thought, "maybe this time I don't have to be so honest..." yeah right. First of all, I gave myself a lot of excuses. It was Friday, two of the days had been rainy, one of the days I felt like I needed to just stay home and be with Ben (mornings are more often our alone time together), another time I had a rough night getting up a few times. I was FULL of excuses. But all of that to say, it did not go well Courtney. :) Not really that well at all. I got out once and that was Monday.
Those were my thoughts on Friday.
So here's the good news: I didn't wait until the next Monday to remedy it. Why do we "professional dieters" wait for Monday? We think the weekend is some kind of wasteland of hopelessness in eating right and exercising. Well, I want to buck that thought.
By God's grace we went to a park and climbed (most of) a mountain on Saturday. On Sunday we went for a morning walk with the little ones. And now it is Monday again. Last night was a rough night getting Aria down. I didn't go to sleep until maybe 11:30 and then woke up at 1:30. I already had it in my mind that I would wake up at 5:30 so that I could have a good hour with the Lord and then be able to go around 6:30 or so. I kept stressing as I as trying to get Aria down, thinking about the fact that I would have to get up earlier than usual and I was not getting enough sleep anyways and my eyelid had been twitching and I wasn't able to nap yesterday and and and.... Finally the Lord just said, Jody, let it go. My grace is sufficient for you for my power is made perfect in weakness. I will provide you with the energy you will need to wake up early and do the things you need to do tomorrow. Just let go and relax. Stop stressing.
Whew. Okay God. Really? I'll be okay? Even if I don't sleep enough?
I'm not saying it's good to make a pattern out of not sleeping enough, but this was just what God was speaking to me. Stop worrying. :)
Okay, another tidbit that I "learned" this weekend: sugar makes me feel ... sick. On Saturday I forgot to eat lunch so I think I ate around 3:30 or 4 (yeah...) I was satisfied but then I wanted some chocolate chips, and then some more chocolate chips... We went to my mom's for dinner and she had some cookies sitting out. So I had a few. After all, I'm a nursing mother, I need a lot to eat, of course. Then we had an awesome dinner and ice cream pie for dessert. By the time we laid down for bed I was like, Ugh, I had too much sugar today. Last night Ben and I watched the movie Forks Over Knives and it totally confirmed my thoughts that we are not eating enough fruits and vegetables and too much fats and sugars. I'm thinking that our diets need an overhaul.
So my goal for today is to make wise choices. In my food, in my exercise and in my rest.
Lord, I don't want this to be a focus in my life. I want to be healthy so that I can do the things You have called me to do. You have designed our bodies for exercise and good food. Help me to work in that. Help me to minister to my kids and pour myself out for them and my husband. I give this day to You.