Sometimes I really hate the title of my blog post. Isn't everyone trying to lose weight? Aren't there all kind of fitness magazines and websites and television shows dedicated to this whole weight loss thing?
I mourn the years that I've spent obsessing over the next big diet fad, switching from one to another and feeling hopeless. Gaining back any weight I would try to lose plus some more.
Lord, there is hope in this isn't there?
I just spent about 20 minutes looking at a picture of a girl, wishing I had her body. Men might look at this stuff and think sex, but I think women look at other women with perfect bodies and think jealousy. Both are sin. I feel like they are like graven images before our eyes. We set up idols and we think that they will be our answers. Truthfully, even if I had that body and I was happy in it, it would still age and still die. Bodies will never make us happy. Only Jesus can make us happy.
That's what I've been realizing.
The other day I ate three handfuls of chocolate chips (maybe more). It was the afternoon and I was tired and the kids wore me out, plus, they were organic, so that's better right? And isn't chocolate good for you with the antioxidants and everything? Also, I just had to get through the afternoon. It's Ben's fault, he is the one who is always asking me to have more sweets in the house, I'll just eat them all and I'll show him! (Can you hear the excuses? I'm full of 'em.)
What I needed was to go to the source.
I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:12-13
Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory. Colossians 3:1-4
You are my portion, O Lord;
I have promised to obey Your words.
Taste and see the the Lord is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him.
I don't need physical food, I need food for my spirit. Lord, I pray that I would listen to my physical body and the hunger and full signs it gives me. You are good and You give good gifts. It doesn't matter what I look like, it only matters that I steward this body well. Teach me to worship You with all that I am.